The recent changes in my life have forced me to build all sorts of new habits. From becoming an independent learner after spending my whole life in traditional school (which I think plenty of us can relate to thanks to covid), to having to adjust to taking conference calls and meetings instead of spending time with friends. One of the habits I have had to work hardest at is how I speak to myself, and how I allow others to speak to me. I think a lot of people forget that I didn’t grow up in this industry, and that I’m 17. People see the views and likes on my videos and assume their words can’t touch me, but now and again, they do. I’ve had to get into the habit of speaking nicely to myself, even when others don’t, and also into the habit of remembering that things people say to and about me, have everything to do with them and almost nothing to do with me.
There’s something really transformative that happens in your life when you start spending more time alone and begin to focus on cultivating a relationship with yourself that feels good. I think it’s because when you seek that relationship with yourself, it manifests itself into your relationships with others as well. I notice my social habits are changing, I spend more time with a small circle. We spend time outside together surfing, hiking, and dancing. We laugh together, cry together, and pray together. I feel like I am exactly where I am supposed to be.