This has also been painful for me because the identity and community I found on TikTok through the members of the Latinx community that have been welcoming was so special to me. Amongst my siblings, I have the darkest skin, eyes, and hair, and “look” the most Mexican. I always kind of felt like I stood out. My high school was majority white and as a competitive dancer, a lot of my community there was white, too. It’s hard when you don’t see yourself in the people around you, when you’re built in a different way and have physical features that aren’t among the ones people are proclaiming to be the prettiest or most desirable. In 2020, my last year as a competitive dancer, I started to embrace my roots and chose a Spanish song and costume for my solo. Sadly because of covid, I didn’t get to perform it at any competitions, but I did share it with my studio (the first minute of it is below, filmed on my mom’s iPhone, lol). A few months later, becoming a part of the Latinx creator community also helped me see the beauty in myself and has since strengthened my connection to my culture and where I come from.